Mama, It’s Okay Not To Love It All

Facebook

Motherhood is not for the faint of heart.

This post contains affiliate links.

Hot mess mom. That’s what I call myself more days than not.

Yes, a picture is worth a thousand words, but many of the ones I post (though I do try to keep it real, guys!) don’t even begin to do justice about what our day to day life is really like. Honestly, it looks more like the picture above. Mom bun. Workout tights. Glasses. Blake up my ass. Hey, you get nothing more than #honestmotherhood right here.

I love our life. There are moments where I seriously get all teary-eyed because I feel so incredibly blessed to surround myself with the amazing humans that I do on a daily basis, two of which I gave birth to, and one husband that I said “I do” to. But there are moments where frustration runs so high, blood boiling moments that take over and I hate that.

But Mama, It’s Okay Not To Love It All

These are the words that I try to take deep breathes and remind myself as I’m living in the trenches and having an overwhelming moment.

There is a part of me that gets a thrill out of being completely busy. I love to have a to-do list a mountain long because I get really bored whenever I don’t have anything lined up to work on. But I admittedly also get overwhelmed really quickly, too. Yup, I’m the mom always seeking balance in the everyday.

A few weeks ago, Chris started a new job and I went back to being full-time WAHM all by my lonesome trying to keep Blake entertained/write and work on projects. The first few days I was so on the ball that I felt like a true rockstar. Then my mom was home from work one day and that got Blake really excited and she became so hyper I almost didn’t know how to handle it. This lasted into the next day and I was pulling my hair out. I yelled. I cried. I felt my heart racing.

And I feel guilty about feeling this way, sometimes.

Almost every picture that you see in magazines or scrolling through Instagram show complete motherhood perfection, like this is the way it’s supposed to be all of the time. Except that it’s not. And then, if you’re like me, you start to question things. Is every mom living this perfect mom life? Am I the oddball out for not being completely, happily consumed with every moment of it? I don’t think so.

I think that we all struggle a little bit some days. Sometimes, I’ll go weeks at a time having really awesome days where everything is just right. And then we have a really rough morning with Branden or an epic toddler tantrum turns me into The Hulk, and then I’m consumed with allllll the mom guilt.

Motherhood is cyclical like that. And you know what? I think we all need to be more conscious about picking each other up when we know a mom friend is having one of those bad days. Lifting each other up makes us all feel a little bit less alone. Because believe me, it’s okay not to love it all.

Looking for more mom life post? I’ve got some good ones!

I can’t end this post without saying a huge YOU’RE DOING AMAZING – because you are. The fact that we worry and feel these things speaks volumes and means that we’re all awesome moms and doing the best we can. Some days are harder than others and its totally okay not to love all the moments.

XOXO,

Allison